Today i boot up Youtube (Bad mistake), the algorithm is assaulting me, it senses my Existential unrest and poor life choices and shoots at me with a certain brand of videos, one says "A reason not to worry about wasting life" i click it because im fucking stupid, this long talk about Internal Life and external Life, and how you don´t really contro the external so you shouldn´t worry about it that much, something something external items are images of Ideal Items, wich isn´t too far fetched and a rather common realization i think
Then he talks about this Jew whose name my brain just skipped and refused to register, and he talks about how this jew survived the Holocaust and blah blah, and how to give in to spite is the bad thing and all that, at this point i tune out of the Video, this man providing me with Existential Advice doesn´t know about the Frankfurt School, or the correlation between Jews and Wallstreet, or their Pivotal Role in the Bolshevik Revolution
This is how the CIA gets to you, it thinks that just because you are sad, or angry, or in pain, or whatever, that you are going to forget basic Facts about the world and have an impaired sense of Cognition, no, i still know about the Frankfurt School, and who the Early Christians were, and Adrenocrome and Circumcision you fucking Niggers
Just like this man, there were other videos the Algorithm shot at me, and they were all in similar Self-Help theme, do this, think that, Retardmaxx to get this or that, there was this other guy talking about Consumer Culture and how people have it harder these days because "The Dollar is devaluated", of course he ain´t gonna tell you who has devaluated the Dollar, or why all manufacturing has been conveniently moved towards the Third World and how Globalism has made it so that no country can truly be Independent and everyone is eternally in Debt to certain Private Actors like the Federal Reserve
Its shit like this that flares up my Messiah complex, i may or may not be the most competent guy and dropped out of the Army after two weeks because i was too Weak, but every sinlge time, everyone, they all flunk out, they Compromise, they forget about the Jews, about the bigger picture, they get lost in translation, you have all of these Nuclear Scientists with 900IQ that know everything there is to know failing basic Litmus Tests and having no sense of why they are where they are or why things are the way they are, people see things in abstract, everything happens Randomly to them, "Rome" is a thing, "Car" is another thing, they think in boxes not in threads, at absolute best you have new age Faggots talking about Ego death and how everyone is connected in the most Diabetic "Live Laugh Love" way possible
Everything is interconnected in one way or another, everything is a Syncronicity, the Divine is in all things, a Monk sees this and realizes God is in all things thus remains in a perpetual state of Religious Intoxication, Man has cut itself away from Myth and this way of Living and Percieving, thus has lost any and all sense of the Divine and seeks for surrogates, the best example is Neo-Nietzchean Homosexual Jew and Potential MOSSAD agent "Bronze Age Pervert" who states that it is Animals, and not man that live in perpetual Religious intoxication, this conception is very popular amidst Cum-guzzling mentally retarded Twitter Rightoids whose concept of White race is Black Sun edits but then have the most Semitic-Merchant worldview you could ever imagine
i see all this shit and it flares my Messiah Complex even more, i feel like im the last Monk of some extinct order of Porn-Addicted Outcasts i have the feeling that i have no control over my Life, wich conflates a lot with my Absent Sense of identity, i used to believe in the State and Fascism and a Kanntian state of Affairs with an Absolute Monarchy and Divine Duty, but that regimented part of my personality was purged when i joined and Failed at the Army, the Duel between these two facets has been solved and now i realize that my Identity is the Lack of an Identity conflated with the perpetual Outcast-Renegade Archetype, i must Burn my face with Acid and skulk around in a Cloak and a Balaclava