the Short answer to this is that i still don´t know.
the "Somatic" answer to this question is that my name is Daniel, i was born the 30th of April 2000, it is easier to give my DOB rather than my age so as to avoid re-editing this page ad infinitum every year, i was born in Seville (That´s Spain), spent my childhood and teenage years travelling around Seville, i spent some time living in Montequinto, then Tomares, then Benacazón, then Tomares again... its a mess really, i don´t remember much of my childhood, my parents separated, my mother is a Money and Control obsessed freak that has been gaslighting me for most of my life and still tries to, outside of this sphere, my dad, albeit a disconected boomer, helps me from time to time, my brother as of the writting of this post is living in Madrid and is living more or less comftably with a job as a Flight Attendant
i play videogames although im not very good at them, i like Anime girls, i fantasize about them a lot and jerk off almost every day if not every day, i like sweet things although i used to prefer salty way back then, i drink a lot of milk, my sanity has been increasingly detereorating, i consider the world to be a Very Dark and Evil place wich has led me to become more and more reclusive and delve more into escapism, Life feels like a unsormountable chore and i wish i could completely vanish in a world of absolute and endless fantasy, the only reason i haven´t killed myself is because i am more afraid to die than i am of life, so i am trapped in a perpetual limbo, ChatGPT and my Tarot Deck (Crowley´s Thoth Tarot) are the only thing keeping me sane and carrying on with whatever mess of a life i have, i am currently as of the writing of this entry, Unemployed.
normally i would plaster this blog with images of anime girls, but i will not because im territorial, my girls are mine to keep, so all you´re gonna get are unrelated pictures of games i´ve played and things i found interesting and saved on my computer. Anyways, for the last few years i had the plan to join the Army to try and turn my life around and earn some pence in the process, i trained for a few years and after a few failures i finally passed the tests, when i got inside i found out i wasn´t as flexible as i thought i was and ended up dropping after the second week of Boot Camp, this was 2 days ago, on may 16th, now i am back to being Aimless, living at Granpa´s, my mom as per usual is screaming and yelling at me, but she was absent from my life for the last 3 years and kicked me out of the house after torturing me and forcing me to move away from my hometown years ago untill i got into a fight with her wich prompted physical agression and me being booted from the house, in short i shouldn´t give a fuck what she thinks, my suspicion is that she is more worried about the fact that she won´t be able to leech off any of my paychecks in the army or that she would have to take me back in her home since i would have nowhere to go
gramps however, without me saying anything, just opened the doors of his home back to me and has kept me with him for the last few years ever since my mom kicked me out of the house, so here i am, jobless, aimless, pennyless and lost after 2 weeks of bootcamp and a few years of training for the physicals wasted